heavy heart

"Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart. And try to love the questions themselves . . ." – Rainer Maria Rilke




‎"Those who wish to sing always find a song." – Swedish Proverb




"Let us cry. Let us be. Let us open up our hearts without fear of anything." – Rise Against




‎"I want you to be everything that's you, deep at the center of your being." – Confuscious




"Happiness resides not in possessions and not in gold; the feeling of happiness dwells in the soul." – Democritus




‎"It is never too late to be what you might have been." – George Eliot




‎"Isn't it nice to think that tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it yet?" – Lucy Maud Montgomery




"It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are." – E.E. Cummings




"Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see life with a clear view again." – Alex Tan








This week has been a difficult one. My friend's little sister, who i wrote about in a previous blog, passed away in the early hours of Tuesday morning. Questions arise "why her?"
she was so young - only 19
and so full of joy and love....
reading her facebook wall, it is clear to see that to know her was to love her completely. she just radiated love. 
yet, i can't imagine the loss and pain her family are feeling. i can't even imagine losing a sister, a daughter. 


death can come so sudden. and life is so short and fragile. it really reminds me, again, to be grateful for the things i do have. grateful for my amazing family, my beautiful friends, my health.


it also reminds me, again, that at the end of the day - success isn't about what you have. it's about how much love you've generated. she was definitely a love generator - she loved many, and was loved in return by many. to me, that is the sign of a successful life. everyone she knew was impacted by her in some way. she lived her life to the full. she loved her life and all who shared it with her. 




again, i say, live each day to the fullest. be grateful for what you have. cherish those who are dear to your heart. don't put off til tomorrow things that should be done or said today. celebrate beauty. love LOTS! laugh often. enjoy each moment.






in death, as in life, she was an inspiration. never losing faith. never losing love.


rest in peace, little one. you were, and will always be, loved and cherished by all who knew you. you will not be forgotten. 
xxx

weekend..

this weekend has been full of ups and downs.

friday was meant to be the day i said goodbye to my mister.

but, delightfully, we were given another day together cos his work changed their mind on where they were sending him.

so. we got friday as a bonus.

saturday a.m was an early one. 5am awake. finalise packing. then i dropped him at the shuttle place in town.

tearful goodbye.

saying goodbye is hard. it never gets easier. 3 months apart is hard.

but this is all part of my journey. our journey. our life at the moment.

it's not forever.

i can't wait for the day when he comes home for good and there will be no more sad goodbyes.

countdown is on now....until i see my mister again.

but then i spent some time with some friends, which lifted my spirits.

laughs, great food, wine. was great to take my mind off the lonely times ahead.

tonight, though, my heart is lonely.

i look at the la-z-boy where he usually sits.

but he's not there.

i really REALLY hope these months go fast.

christmas is coming.

i just hope it hurries the frick up!