comparing your life to others'

i have decided that there is nothing sillier than comparing your life to other peoples' lives.

this is something that i am completely guilty of a lot of the time. i was especially bad last year, and the year before that...but this year i am determined to be more content with what i have in my life and make the most of it.

right now, it's a bit difficult though. a LOT of my friends from high school (and life in general) have either had babies or are pregnant now. i'm totally ecstatic for them, of course, and wish them nothing but joy in their new adventures as mummies....but i can't help feeling a little jealous because the ONE thing i want more than anything in my life is to be a mummy...to have my own little cherub to love and nurture and adore.

i know, i know. it will happen. when it's right. good things take time. yeah, yeah.
and i also understand the logic that now we've started with our new house plans (YAY!!!!!!!) we might as well wait until that is all finished before we start shooting out the sprockets. but, it's a little bit hard when growing up, i ALWAYS thought i would have had my babies by now. WELL before now.
oh well. i guess life it like that. things happen. new adventures take you in new directions, and therefore plans change. or have to be put on hold. it's all good. it's all part of the journey.

i am pretty happy with my life right now. the weather is gorgeous. sunshine, warmth, and blue skies make me happy. the mister is home. we have a visitor from the UK here too, which makes life fun. i also have made a new breakthrough with my health and fitness regime. just got home from the gym now, and even I was surprised at how motivated i was during my workout today. you should have seen the look on my Personal Trainer's face when she came in and saw me running on the treadmill. haha....sounds like nothing, i know - but if you truly know me, you will know how much i absolutely positively LOATHE running. but there i was. running. fast. for ages. phew!
i am determined that 2011 is going to be my year. and so far, it is. life is good. i am happy. i am not needing my meds as regularly (but yes, i'm still being careful about that). i have reunited with 'lost' friends from last year and i am committed to keeping my relationships on track and flourishing. my photography is going well and i am hoping will get even better.

today is a good day. now is a good time in my life and i am really relishing being able to enjoy it.

"keep up the good work" - i should tell myself this everyday.
i AM doing well. i AM fighting and i AM winning. my life is becoming more and more my own again. i have more control and i LOVE it!!!!!